Yes, I know it is still a ways away. 44 days, to be exact.
But Mother’s Day is a HARD holiday for me. And this year will be the second hardest ever, following closely to Mother’s Day 2008.
You see, on May 11, 2006 I brought forth a wee babe who stole my heart (as do all children).
Levi Douglas (a name picked somewhat by his great grandfather before he passed away in February 2006) was a happy baby. He was calm and quite, but loved to smile. He loved to snuggle up with me. He loved being outside. He loved animals. His eyes were the most vivid shade of blue…
In October 2007, we took our family on a magical 10 day vacation to Disney World!
Only 5 days after being home he was lost to this earth. It is a journey that is still so very painful. A young man ran a red light and tboned our car. Matt and I weren’t even told for 48 hrs, as we almost died, as well.
And still, we persevere…I have no idea how most days. I miss him! GOD, I MISS HIM!!!! It is still hard to not ask why, but most days I can handle the crushed spirit from grief. Apparently, however, today isn’t one of those days.
His second birthday, our first of many without him, was on Mother’s Day. As it is again this year. He never really talked, though I knew he could. He just preferred to be quite. I never heard “mommy” from his lips. Someday, I have faith, I will see him again.
Mommy loves you, Little Man…So much…